When there is the death of your very best friend and spouse, you deal with the not there. Missing. Gone. Absent. Emptiness. No one to share life with anymore.
Some months later, I went to Lowes and bought a plant I had never seen before called Cat’s Whiskers. The flower was nearly black reflecting my mood but the tendrils were full of life and movement. Elegant. Recalibrate, be resilient. Move forward.